Oh, Darling

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I used to think
that we would
always be together.
I have never been
more wrong.

I have to accept
the fact that
we have drifted,
and get use to the
pain, yet I know
I will never fall
out of love with you.

Our future used
to be planned,
and perfect,
but the past
is changed by
the present.
You have gifted
me with absence.

I miss you,
so much.
You used to be
next to me.

Oh, darling.
You do wondrous
things, and very often
you do a good job
of making me want
to live, and a better job
of making me want to die.

I have never
felt more alive
with the need
to die.

My fingers miss
you, as the spaces
between them
use to be home
to yours.

Every time I
look in the
mirror, I
will see the lips
you once kissed
and the eyes
you once looked
at. I can never
see myself
anymore.

Let me drown
in the atmosphere
of your absence,
and you will
sail in the soul
that was once
tied unto yours.

I write as if
we shared
love, but in truth,
I was only me
that ever loved.
You simply took
advantage.

Oh, darling,
you once told
me that love,
in all its glory
and all its flaws,
is a promise,
more than a feeling.
If that is so,
then that must mean
you never felt
anything in the first
place, for all things
and all promises
begin with the heart
and what kind
of rhythm it produces.

I forget that
my skin
used to be
your sanctuary,
a place for you
to come home
to when the day
had been too harsh.
I have never wanted
to have a different
body more.

Stars lie
beside
my sorrow,
as I think
about tomorrow,
and the days
to come,
and ways
to celebrate
life without
you.

You were my
wolf, as I was
your stars.
I guided you,
and you stayed with me.
But as the moon came,
you forgot me.
I wept, but then I
remembered
that I am the
stars and that
I make my own
light, and I
cast no shadow.

Oh, darling.
I used to think
I miss you.
I was wrong,
I still love you,
but I don’t need
you anymore.

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The Time of Our Lives

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Thirty-five days before, the night was still and you sat there. You looked at the ceiling as if stars were painted on it, and I couldn’t help but look up myself. You saw me and laughed. My heart mimicked the sound produced by your laughter, and you stared at me as if you heard it beat.

 

Two weeks from then, I walked with you home, our shoulders touching lightly. You told me about how you loved to sing hen you were alone, and you sung me a little melody. I asked why you sang, and you smiled. You took my hand in yours, as the clouds blew above us.

 

Nineteen days passed, and I gave you a kiss, you kissed me right back. You smelled like strawberries and tasted like starlight symphonies. I never wanted to let you go as we tangled together deep into the night.

 

Seven years from that moment, she said her first word, our daughter, Lyra. You grinned with tears in your eyes, and held the two of us close, like we were your whole world.

 

Fifty five seconds ago, you shouted at me for pushing her too hard. I shut my mouth and sat beside you, waiting fro something to happen. I asked God for out little lyre to speak, and nearly a minute later, he granted my prayer.

 

In twenty-six years, we held our first grandchild in our arms. His eyes were like yours, and his smile like our daughter’s. That night you told me you loved me, for the millionth time, and I kissed you goodnight.

 

Thirty two suns after that, you sung to me the song you first sang that night. You looked more beautiful than a thousand stars, even lovelier than how you looked before. Your hand was at home in mine, as you laid down our bed. A tear had fallen on your face, from my sad eyes that night.

 

Sixteen minutes had gone, and it was like you just fell asleep. I whispered the promises we made to one another that day we exchanged our rings. My heart had beat for the last time, the rhythm of when we looked at the ceiling that night long ago. I closed my eyes, and the you were. My God and my love at last, together in paradise.

I Miss You

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My Dearest Love,

I miss you. I have missed you. I will miss you.
It’s been too long, my dear. I miss your hands, and your skin against mine. I miss your eyes, and they way you looked at me whenever I laughed. I miss your hair, and the smell of your body against mine. I miss us. I miss the way we used to be.

My darling, I wish you the best. My darling, I wish you grace. My darling, I wish you eternal happiness. My darling, I wish that you find someone to love you, better than I ever did. My darling, we may not be lovers anymore, but I will forever love you.

Remember the moments when we used to be infinite. Remember those times we used to be powerful in the midnight. Remember, remember who we used to be, my dearest.

I love you. I have loved you. I will forever love you.

 Truly yours,
Your Dear

Caged

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How

can

I

even

love

you

when

I

cannot

love

myself

without

you?

Is

love,

in

all

its

greatness

and

all

its

flaws,

a

complex

thing

to

decode.

We

are

slaves

of

what

we

seek

for.

We

are

prisoners

of

the

promise

that

is

love.

You

and

I

are

caged

in,

trapped.

We

are

locked

in

ourselves,

in

our

vows,

in

love.

Songs in the Sky

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We are songs in the sky, that we ourselves yearn to hear.

And then a voice calls out, telling us,
“Be free, get lost. My children, sing about liberty.”

That’s when we start flying.
We are birds without wings, and the wind without the cold.

We simply are songs in the sky.

I have never seen myself.
I have never seen my brothers and sisters.

But I know that we are one,
in harmony and melody.

We pass by souls,
we glide by beings.

And we make them smile.
That is the best part about being what we are.

There came a moment when
I was unsure about who I am.

But now I am whole,
and I am free.

I am a song in the sky,
and I fly as I sing about liberty.

I am lost, and I am blind.
I have heard who I am. I am complete.

Sea Song Melody

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You were an
ocean away,
but now you’re
in my arms,
and I am
your sea.

Your fingertips
are like sand
against my
naked skin.

You smell like
the morning.
It excites me
to think that
I’ll spend my
mornings with
you now that
we spend
each night
together.

I’m about to
show you
how to make
yourself happy
without anyone
but yourself.
But first,
let me kiss
you while
I still can.

I can
see your
smug smile
from all
the way
over hear.
I cannot
wait to
turn it into
a moan.

Tell me
your secrets,
I’ll tell you
my fears.
Tell me
your gladness,
I’ll tell you
my tears.

Your voice
is a melody
I must hear
to survive.
Your laugh
is a song
I must listen
to to breathe.

I need to
drink you.
You are
stronger
than any
liquor I’ve
ever tasted.

Your body is
the most beautiful
I’ve seen. You are bare,
and you are
stunning.

After all this
wasted youth
of cigarettes,
sex and alcohol,
I can’t wait
to spend the
rest of my
life with you.

You are
the reason
I look
forward
for tomorrow.

The smoke
in your scorching
kiss is like
oxygen to my
lust filled heart.

I want to scream
your name to
heaven and
to hell every time
your fingers
caress me.

I need you
to undress me
with your
voice, and
kiss me
with your
soul.

Please,
I don’t
want us
to fuck.
I want
us to
make love,
like we
are love
itself.

I am
lost in
the sea
that is
you, and
I thirst
for your
affection.

I need
your skin
against mine
to fall
asleep.

Do you
remember
the first time
the sky
and the sea
met?
It was like
the color
blue kissed
a colorless
soul, and
turned it
bright.
I want us
to be like
that.

I am free,
I am lost.
I am captured
by this liberty.

I am a
song
in the sky.
You are a
song
in the sea.
We are melody.

Why can’t
I ever be
contended
without you?

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What Happened

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Tell me your
deepest dreams,
and your darkest
delights, and
I’ll tell you about
my mundane
madness and
my undying love
for you.

I miss the
melody of
your laughter
and your humming
each morning
I wake up.

I think I
made the
biggest mistake
of taking
you for granted.

Lean on me,
and I’ll hold you
in this unbalanced
society of
the perfect
and of
the peculiar.

I’m so human
to have fallen
in love with
your perfect
soul.

Somewhere we
have a paradise
waiting for us.
Someday,
we’ll find it.

It will be
just the two
of us, when
this day ends.

How dare
you trust
your heart
and fall
in love
with me?

Now the day
shall be
reborn from
our mistakes
and burn
with the passion
for a better light
in its bright center.

I miss you,
my darling.
Oh, how
I miss how
we’ve been together.

We were
unstoppable.
It was just
you and me
against our
demons.
What happened?

This isn’t
how we used
to be. We used
to be fun,
unbreakable,
infinite. Now we’re
limited and
breathless,
and I have
never needed
you more.

Let’s not
waste this
time together,
our worlds
won’t last forever.

I’ll be waiting
for you until
we meet again,
oh my darling.
I’ll be here
when you
will be
victorious
against your
devils.
Just learn
to fight
without me.

Don’t try to
fight it
when angels
try to comfort
you in the midst
of terror. Just try
to get by
remembering
that not all
angels
have wings.

I love everything
you do, when
you sing me
to sleep
and wake me
up with a kiss.
I wish everyday
can be
spent with
you.

Tell me
what to
do to make
it all feel
better.
I lost
my wings.

It’s okay,
my love.
I’ve never
had wings
of my own.
Maybe
I can teach
you how
to fly even
without them.

And my friends
don’t know what
friends are.
And tonight
I think I’m going
to war… for my lover.
You’re in love with
another girl.

Something
is
wrong.

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Brave Cowards

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We

are

the

bravest

cowards

this

world

has

ever

seen.

We

live

with

strength

and

move

with

passion

beneath

our

fingertips,

yet

we

know

deep

within

our

fragile

selves

that

we

are

capable

of

so

much

more.

Like

love,

for

example.

Can

I

ever

love

like

I

am

supposed

to?

 

Hey,

I

know

you

think

that

you

are

breakable

and

delicate

but

take

a

look

at

me,

dear.

I

have

something

to

tell

you

that

I’ve

been

keeping

inside.

I

think

I

love

you,

but

I

know

you

don’t

feel

the

same

way.

That’s

why

I’m

keeping

my

mouth

shut.

Because

love

is

so

much

more

than

an

emotion;

love

is

a

vow.

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Unstable Sanctuary

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Just you wait,
my long lost love.
I will come home.
I will be back.
Just you wait.
I will be home.

My life depends
on the sky and
the sea, on music
and passion,
on poetry and
forgotten dreams.

I think I
disappeared
within your
tangled promises
and unsolved
puzzles.

Why the fuck
am I not
enough for
all of you?

I offer my heart,
and you take it
with this mad
grin on your
face and leave
without a word.

I’m sick of
giving you
what should
have been
my greatest
treasure.
Now my heart
is an artifact
I’ll never
get to see again.

Trust me,
please trust me,
my darling.
I will never
ever wrong you.
I swear that
on my life.
Please trust me.

Look around,
go on and
tell me what
you see.

I can feel
history
when I hold
your hand,
and I am
blessed with
the philosophy
of the doubtless
when you kiss me.

Luck is for
people who
believe in
dreams that
never come true.
Patience is for
the just and
the kindhearted.
I am neither.

Join me in
the revolution
to freedom.
I want to
be able to
express myself
and tell you
how much
I love you
without
being stuck
in the chest.

Yes, I am yours.
Yes, I am mine.
No, I am not nobody’s.
No, I am not a prisoner.
Yes, I am free.
No, I am happy.

It took me
a million
minutes
to muster
three words
to tell you,
and I get
painful
silence.

Peace is
a stable
sanctuary
in a world
of chaotic
wonder.

You are my
safe place,
my home in
faraway lands,
and my sanctuary
in a world I
cannot bare
alone.

I must confess,
sometimes I feel
empty when I am
with you,
other times,
you complete me.
The confusion
hurts my brain,
my chest, and
most tragically,
my soul.

I am jealous
of you and
your new lover,
who you’ve been
with for months
and month on end.
It’s stupid, really,
because we never
really had a history
together. I merely
asked you to
wait and you didn’t.

I have figured that
I must learn
how to fall
in love with
those who love me,
and not ask
for those I
love to
love me back.

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The Indigo Girl

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The sea was rough,
It was a deep indigo.
And so was the sky.

When I looked at you,
seeing the clouds in your eyes,
I would feel wonder.

The world was a mix,
of colors, vast and many.
You were made of two.

You were a siren,
in this ocean world of yours,
and you sang of rain.

I called you ‘Indigo‘,
for the color in your eyes.
You smiled as I did.

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