We Had Together

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Hey, I know
that it’s been a while,
and I am trying to let
you go, but can we just talk? Just now,
and I promise that after this, I’ll leave you alone.

People pray of dangerous things,
like demon wings and angels to sing, but
with you I only pray for love, and love to
let alone make me a little happier than the
sad state that I usually float around in.

In moment like this, I miss
the minutes we had together,
whether they were good or bad,
I miss what we had. I miss us.

Don’t let me talk about
a broken heart, I’m trying to start again,
I just need a friend and not a lover,
for my last lover left me,
she didn’t see how much I loved her,
and it hurt, but I want to start over,
never to cover my head with dread, to start again.

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Beer, Rusts, and Forevers

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I can’t hear you
from here, my ears
are shut and ill.
Will you please stop
shouting, and doubting
over what I can or can’t do?
Do you even have a clue
about what I’m going
through, stumbling and
crumbling like I can’t
feel my arms and legs,
I need warmth and kegs
of beer to steer and hear clear.
So will you please
stop shouting?
Just buy me a beer.

Take me back
to the track
of the just,
before I rust.
I can’t help
but lose my
way, without your
say I’m a goner,
left to wonder and
wander away from
what I know is right,
please hold me tight
when I’m enveloped in fright.
I’m a goner and a loner,
alone and cold as stone,
weak in the bone, pleading
for your touch,
I need you too much.

Let me sleep,
and keep my eyes
closed, before you
impose over your
say on friends and
lovers, and make me
shudder on how raw
your words come out,
more than a shout,
less than a whisper.
My hands, they quiver,
on how you love,
on how you vow,
now and forever‘,
I wish I could promise
to love the same,
yet I’ll miss and kiss
but not love, that’s the
shame with how
I think, every blink,
every minute,
I move closer to my limit.
Let me sleep,
and keep my dreams
of love and vows,
now and forever.

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Avalanche

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You have the
rare ability to
make me smile.

The walls are
stained with your
biggest strength
and greatest weakness.

There are cracks in
my own spine that you
put there yourself.

Fractured bones
and dismembered
hearts don’t heal overnight.

There is an
avalanche between
us every time our
lips meet.

I will remember
you like you
are my longed
for miracle.

The world
quakes as we
walk the soil,
hand in hand.

Can you hear the
sky tremble at our collision?

 I will miss
when we used
to cause earthquakes.

Now we are
just mere mortals,
learning to fall in love
and to fight without
leaving each other behind.

You can’t stop
singing whenever
I’m with you,
can’t you?

Will it thunder
if we made love
right now?

There is
tenderness
after thunder,
and hope in
a sandstorm.

You light
my eyes like
lightning bolts
in the night sky.

Stop looking
at me like
I’m the one that
gave you scars.

If you can’t
be strong without
me, then I think
I can never be
strong with you.

Inside your fingertips,
there is courage,
and within your heart,
there is a nebula.

The earth
shook the
day I said
goodbye
to you.

Remember
when we were
invincible and
in love?

We were young,
we were learning,
we were reckless.

I want you to
trust me again,
just like old times.

Your veins carry
the weight of the
world, and my
shoulders carry
the weight of
your heart.

The air is heavy
with regret.

I can smell the rain
as you cry beside me.

We used to be
so good at our
art of making
storms and landslides.

What will
erupt from
the pit of your
chest if I dare to
break you once more?

Did anyone ever
love you as much
as I did?

Will you ever
kiss a shot
of life back
into me?

You are the
destruction
my chaotic
self chooses
to chase.

Will you
be my
avalanche
once more?

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On The Spectrum

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You are real,
and I need to
find you.

It’s not like my
emotions are a
hindrance to my
existence.

The sky is the color
of tomorrow’s wars,
and a shade of what
will haunt my dream
tonight.

Pain motivates me to breathe,
and it adds color to dull happiness.

You are what
I look forward to
each time I close my eyes.

When I pray for safety,
or ask for grace, you come
to mind and I find myself
begging for your identity.

Maybe this is all it ever is,
drunken love and sober detachment.

You are what colors
my art, and fuels my
passion to never cease.

The world is an
overcrowded vacuum,
and I find myself wanting
to find you in this midst of
loneliness.

On the spectrum,
I am white and
you are black.

Are you waiting
for me on the
other side?
Is there love
on the other side?
Do we coexist on
the other side?

I have dreamt of you,
of falling in love with you,
of painfully losing you
a long time ago.

What hurts the
most is that I know
that you breathe as
well as I, and that you
loved me once.
I don’t know
if you’ll love
me again, maybe
leave me again before
you even find me.

I will think back
at this very moment
one day, gray and alone,
and weep at the absence
you never got to fill.

The shades of your eyes,
the hues of your skin, the
tone of your lips play
with the beat of my heart.

I remember you,
vividly and tragically.

Maybe you just live
in my slumber and
my heart has crafted
you in hopes of finding
a love pure, or maybe
you are out there living
happily without me in
your life.

The worst thing
is that I don’t know
if I’ll ever find you.

You are not the end
of the rainbow, but
every color that shines
in it.

One day, I will.

The Weight of Passion

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I once dreamed
of loving another.
I once hoped
for a kind lover.
I once believed
in newfound light,
though slightly twisted,
I sought too bright.

You weren’t first
to capture my heart,
you weren’t alone
to play a part.
You never knew
the weight of passion,
you let me hurt,
under attraction.

This is the part where my heart
is ahead of my brain, when I can’t
refrain from thinking about you.
I want to get rid of you,
from my strain of thought,
from what you once brought
me into. Dim to the reality,
this is not love, this is a
tragedy. A tragedy written
in my hand, a command
I cannot ignore, implored
by my heart, which plays
a part in the sole of
my existence.

For instance, you held me close once more,
and promised another forevermore.
This will be my ruin and my end,
impaling a heart I cannot defend.
In the end, I will discover
that you were never my lover;
you were a sinner who
wrapped my beginner’s heart
and took it apart, piece by
piece by piece. You are a
disease I cannot cure.

Surely, you never truly
loved me the way
I loved you. Did you?
To recall your vows
of staying, and of me
praying for them to be
true, you lied to me,
didn’t you?

Here lies the weight
of my passion, a crash into
misfortune. What once was
heavy, now a weightless misery.

Between Stars

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I wonder why
we never talk
about tomorrow.

He touched me
and I saw the sky
for the first time.

She held me against
the moon and slowly
took me higher.

I can feel
the light
ignite
my skin
after so long.

You taste is dull
in comparison
to what I savor.

She let
our worlds
collide.

Being an angel,
or being a devil
is a lot heavier
than the gravity
of which we
are tied to.

I will miss
any of yesterday’s
moments spent
in either of their
loving embrace.

Will they
ever build
a city in
the sky
just for
me?

Desire becomes
vulnerability, as
vulnerability becomes
a supernova curtain call.

I’ve been in
their dreams;
which are
dark, crowed,
and achingly
lonely.

 He feels like
a rain and fire
cocktail made
to fill my senses.

They deceive me
into thinking that
a space between
two stars is safe.

Apologies for
giving you my
brightness,
my dignity,
my being.

The nakedness
of her is a portal
to a hyper dimension.

You have to
release me
from the
pleasure of
being in between.

Will I never learn
how to lust for my
own glory before
I lust for the heavens’
touch?

When words fail,
say love.

I can see a new
world whenever
he pulls me close.

I let her gaze
into the depths
of my broken,
zero matter soul.

Will I ever
confess that
I love him
as much as
I love her?

I sleep with
the fine line
between
two stars.

His hands are
a masterpiece
lost to so many
great galaxies.

Her kiss will
always be my
last meal on
a death sentence.

Kindness is finding
love with each of us,
and evil is not loving
at all.

The language that we speak in
is half of a rising nebula,
and half of a dying galaxy.

I don’t expect you to
understand the language
that we speak, for our tongues
are more expressive than you think.

I have never left neither
shadow nor cold,
for either side of me
burns with passion.

She may not be everlasting,
he may not be immortal,
but their flames shall dance
within my aging heart forever.

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The Aftermath

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before anything else,
know that i did not want this.

I
USED
TO
THINK
THAT
YOU
LOVED
ME.

I
WAS
CONVINCED
THAT
YOU’D
BE
ONE
OF
THOSE
THAT
WOULD
STAY
WHEN
THE
WORLD
CRUBMLED
DOWN.

YOU
NEVER
LOVED
ME.
YOU
COULDN’T
SAVE
YOURSELF.
WHY
PROMISE
THAT
YOU’D
SAVE
ME?

DON’T
LIE
TO
ME
ABOUT
THE
THINGS
YOU
SAID
YOU
WERE
GOING
TO
DO.

DON’T
EVER
THINK
THAT
I
WILL
LOVE
YOU
THE
WAY
I
USED
TO.

PLEASE
UNDERSTAND
THAT
I
NO
LONGER
NEED
YOU.

DEATH
INSPIRES
ME
TO
GIVE
YOU
A
GLANCE.

DEATH
IS
FAR
TOO
FORGIVING
FOR
YOU.

LIFE
IN
THIS
NEWFOUND
LIGHT
IS
THE
GREATEST
BLESSING
I
HAVE
UNCOVERED
ALONE.

after this every moment,
i shall call myself free from your poison.

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